The main reason I didn’t go with a title that had “addict” in it, however, is that there are too many blogs out there by guys who are addicted to porn and trying to quit, and I didn’t want to be mistaken for one of those. I’m not trying to quit. At all. Bring on the porn!
However, that being said, I am an addict. Just because I’m not trying to stop being an addict – hence the impenitent part – doesn’t mean I’m not one in the first place. I am. I’m addicted to porn.
Maybe it would help to look at the definition. I know it’s hokey to just post definitions – every mock “bad speech” always begins with “Websters Dictionary defines ‘addiction’ as …” – but according to the medical dictionary section of thefreedictionary.com, addiction is defined thusly:
Addiction is a persistent, compulsive dependence on a behavior or substance. The term has been partially replaced by the word dependence for substance abuse. Addiction has been extended, however, to include mood-altering behaviors or activities. Some researchers speak of two types of addictions: substance addictions (for example, alcoholism, drug abuse, and smoking); and process addictions (for example, gambling, spending, shopping, eating, and sexual activity). There is a growing recognition that many addicts, such as polydrug abusers, are addicted to more than one substance or process.Simple enough, right? Am I persistent in consuming porn? Hell yeah. Is it a compulsion? One could quibble, perhaps. Am I dependent on it? Well, I definitely miss it when its gone.
And here’s the thing: Like other addictions, you start to build a tolerance. I’ve written before about my college days, and the fact that, even though I couldn’t afford it, I spent a lot of money on magazines. I’d buy one, it would be amazing, but after a week or two of looking at the same pictures they’d start to lose their punch. The hottest girls in the hottest positions with the hardest cocks, which would give me such a thrill on initial viewing, would all become commonplace with enough viewing.
But it’s not just specific pictures or videos, it’s also true of genres. Maybe pictures of pretty girls are enough at first, but that won’t last long; you start to crave nudity. (Speaking of band names, I think Crave Nudity would be an awesome band name.) Then nudity isn’t enough, you need to peer deeply into the depths of her pussy. (Not something I personally enjoy, but as I’ve written about before other guys obviously do.) When that’s not enough you need to see her getting fucked. You need to see her getting fucked in the ass, you need to see her covered in cum. You need to see her getting tied up, you need to see her getting peed on, or raped, or wallowing in shit, or getting fucked by a horse, or... there’s no end to the different turns your mind will take, when one genre starts to lose its appeal.
Not that i’m saying everyone goes through those stages, or goes through them in that order, or that there aren’t other genres and sub-genres of porn out there. (Apologies if I missed your personal perversion, it wasn’t intentional.) The point is, when some type of porn starts to feel too tame for you, you want to go looking for something “harder.” That’s the very nature of addiction. Do you think people start out smoking crack? Of course not. They probably start out drinking with their friends, at parties, just like everyone else in the world does. Then maybe a friend lets them try weed, and that’s pretty cool. Nice and mellow. Oh, but if you want mellow, you should try ecstasy! It makes you feel like the whole world loves you, and you love it right back! Although, actually, ecstasy is kind of for kids; if you want to try a grown-up drug, maybe you should try cocaine. But then you find that you’re starting to build a tolerance for it; you need to get a pound of coke into your system to get the same high you used to get from one rail. But if you want to try something harder, crack packs quite a punch.
Again, not everyone goes through all of these stages, and not everyone who tries a drink is going to end up addicted to crack, my point is that people who are addicted to crack didn’t just go from zero to crack addict, they built their way up. Similarly, that pervert who likes beastiality videos didn’t just wake up one day and decide to start looking for movies with girls getting pounded by horses, he was probably perfectly happy looking at pictures of naked girls... until he wasn’t. Then he was perfectly happy looking at pictures of girls getting fucked... until he wasn’t. Then he was quite fine watching movies of girls getting fucked... until he wasn’t.
So where has my porn addiction taken me? I’ve already written about some, and I’ll continue to do so. By the time I’m done with this blog (if I ever am), you’ll know all about my porn preferences; through the tags
I’ll pretty much cover all of my pornographic likes and dislikes. So... tune in for that, I guess.
No comments:
Post a Comment